Amazing, Awful, Ordinary Life

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Life is amazing.
And then it’s awful.
And then it’s amazing again.
And in between the amazing and the awful, it’s ordinary and mundane and routine.
Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the ordinary.
That’s just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life.
And it’s breathtakingly beautiful.
– LR Knost

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One month ago, I stood on the South Rim of the Grand Canyon.

My breath caught in my chest. I was in equal parts awe over the incredible view before me and horror over the thought of what I was going to attempt the next day.

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My eyes searched the canyon stretched out endlessly in front of me. A million thoughts were running through my head, but the one that kept bubbling to the top was “What the f- was I thinking?!”

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Over the course of the next day, my thoughts would undulate from the highest of highs – “oh.my.god.is.this.even.real.life?!” – to the lowest of lows – “this.is.where.I.am.going.to.die.” – and everywhere inbetween.

It was full of joy, and disbelief, and smiles, and laughter, and arms-up elation, and wide-eyed amazement, and sheer awe.

It was full of pain, and frustration, and fear, and doubt, and heartbreak, and soul-sucking darkness.

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And it was everything in between.

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And it was life.

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